Dreams and Goals.

That's such a funny thing to think about. I have been thinking about a conversation I had with my wonderful wife. A talk about dreams and goals that have not been reached - YET. And I started thinking about the things I wanted and dreamed about.

For the last year I have been running a business. I guess you would say it is successful... we are still in business. I don't always feel like a success. But alas... I am running a business. SO - over the last year... most of my thoughts have been about running this business and not letting it run me. That's hard.

So after talking to Amy about her dreams and goals that she set for herself before we met... I started thinking about dreams and goals I had long ago.

I have always been heavy. One goal was to be skinner when I found Mrs. Right. Thankfully my smile blinded her... so that worked out... but I still want to be lighter.

From when I was 12 till I was well... I guess till I met Amy. I just knew God wanted me to "REPLACE" Michael W Smith. Everyone in my church told me weekly how much they loved my singing... and they were all eager to buy my album... when I recorded it. I auditioned for Acapella and they would have accepted me... but I didn't have the funds raised when I auditioned so I couldn't go... Then after a few years off... I started singing with a band in Stillwater... Moved there in fact and started singing with them all over the area. We had about 3 months of GREAT music. The PASSION for music and the assurance I had from GOD that I would be Michael W Smith had rubbed off on the rest of the band... we recorded two tracks at the studio that I used on my 1st CD... and then the band fell apart. The Glitter and Glam of it all took the focus off of God and onto US.... and that was all she wrote.

Every now and then I think back on that dream. I think, wow... what would my life be like if I had found the money to go to Acapella. Or maybe, fought harder on the band to make sure God was the center... But that's usually when the thought stops.

If I had taken any other road I would have lost out. Lost out on meeting the BEST THING that has ever happened to me. Meeting my wife, Amy. See God did use that dream and that band in Stillwater to get me to move. To move away from my comfort zone and out of Enid. Move into a job I hated - Walmart checker then SHOE dept! OH MY! Then HE took that Job away and the band too. And because of the people He introduced me to... the connection to Amy was in place. Even though when I met Amy, my heart was broken because I knew I would NEVER be Michael W Smith's replacement. God already had something FAR better to fill the broken parts up.

And If I had never met Amy... I would have NEVER met my angel, Evelyn Grace. I had always wanted to be a dad... but I never knew it would be like this. I didn't know that there was Love like this.

There are things in my mind that "might have been". Things that some might ask " if you could change anything, what would it be". The only things that I would truly have considered... were minor things. Where to hide the ring... when to pop the question... when to kiss her for the first time...

I WOULD NEVER CHANGE THE PATH I HAVE BEEN ON... Because one step different... would mean that I would loose the people in my life now.